Do It For Them

Do It For Them
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Husband, Father, Son, Our Superman

Husband, Father, Son, Our Superman

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Wordful Wednesday- Captured Peace

My dear sweet friend Heidi captured this moment for me at Duane's graveside service. I decided to use this photo for my first Wordful Wednesday hosted by Seven Clown Circus, a weekly themed post I've wanted to do for a while but just kept procrastinating about participating.
Captured Peace. That's how I feel about this particular photo. What a whirlwind of a week we had surrounding Duane's death and funeral. The preparations alongside such intense grief and sorrow. How anyone survives these trying times is a pure miracle, seriously, a gift from our Father in Heaven.
For weeks after the funeral I felt almost a guilt about how peaceful I felt during his funeral service. Whenever I pictured this day I just knew I would be in mass hysterics, inconsolable. But I wasn't, I was the complete opposite, peaceful, full of love, a love for Duane and my Savior. Now don't get me wrong, I've cried, A LOT! Duane was my best friend, companion, (plug your ears) dfl-dang fine lover, my everything. But through my sorrow I was blessed with a peace that Duane didn't leave, not really. That even though I have a tremendous amount of learning I would make it through this seemingly impossible task of raising 7 children on my own.
So whenever I feel that the depths of hell will swallow me whole, that I can't take another moment without Duane's tender touch, I think of this picture and in a flash that captured peace rushes through me and I know, like I did at that graveside service, that "All is Well!"

8 comments:

angie said...

Becky,
This is absolutely beautiful....so powerful and beautifully written. I'm so glad you were able to feel peace at your superman's funeral.....I don't know how you do it, but I'm in awe, and am off to read more.

HUGS!

THanks for playing!

BoufMom9 said...

OMGosh! What a beautiful, beautiful post.
I am so very glad you came by my blog today.
I am so very deeply sorry for your loss and amazed constantly by the grace and strength that God gives.
Looking forward to getting to know you and your beautiful family better.
~ Blessings~
Debi

jori-o said...

I'm so glad you have photo proof of the peace you were feeling, so you can reflect on it and draw strength from the memory whenever you need it.

Joyce said...

Becky,
Wow, Lady. I am so thankful for the peace the Lord is giving you. Do you have family, friends and church to help you out now? Your children are beautiful. <3

Melissa said...

WOW...what a b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l post...I am truly touched!! I know what you mean though, because I too lost my mom to cancer and at her memorial service/funeral and graveside service I did feel that super since of peace...bittersweet peace!!!
I am really sorry to hear about your loss!!!

Lisa said...

Really cool! It is a very poignant picture.

American in Norway said...

You are just such a strong and amazing woman... Hang in there & know you have people from around the world praying for you...

theresa said...

What an amazing picture and great post. I recently read a post by a mom who lost her 11 year old daughter to an accident. She told about her friend who took pictures at the hospital and funeral. At the time, she couldn't imagine wanting to see those pictures, but now is so thankful she has them. I bet you feel similar feelings. I like the theme...